Silent words to Amma

Just once I want to rest my head on your lap,

And feel your fingers combing through my hair,

Whispering everything is going to be fine,

I wonder how you feel the pain I desperately try to hide.

Is it your gut feeling or sixth sense,

That picks up every smile or twitch in my eye,

Never did you praise me sky high,

Nor did you scorn as I left everything to chance.

I often wonder if you were proud of me or disappointed in me,

Till I had my own little girl whose faults never seemed so big to me,

My heart swelling with pride and not telling her she was the best,

I nudged her to do better without bearing down her throat.

Following your foot steps, I want to bring up my little girl.

Resting her head on my lap,

I comb my fingers through her hair,

Whispering everything is going to be fine.

I feel the pain she desperately tries to hide,

With the brush of my lips on her forehead,

I want to make the whole world a better place for her to be.

Sarsimma turns 90

You are in our thoughts again now, as you so often are ....... 
If we had another 10 years, we could have celebrated your 90^th birthday this year.   Happy Birthday Amma!

Remembering you is easy, we do it ever so often, Amma; but missing you is the heartache that never goes away. The mind knows that you are gone, but our hearts will never accept it and we miss u so much.  If only we had known that the last time we saw you, would be the last time we saw you, I wonder about everything that we’d have done - 

May be, hugged you a little tighter, told you I loved you a little louder and stayed by your side a little longer. But we strive to make you proud by being a good mother, compassionate, thoughtful, patient, optimistic, positive and cheerful. 

From your unconditional love, we learnt to be a good mother

From your unending generosity, we learnt to be compassionate
From your kind words and deeds, we learnt to be thoughtful

From your patience through adversity, we learnt to be optimistic and full of hope

From your positive attitude, we learnt to cherish and make every event an occasion

From your sweet smile, we learnt that your cheer will always shine brightly within us

Your life has taught us how to be, and we will always love you Amma